Only you

I haven't been the same sexually since you passed. You know me and how sexual I am, I love porn and sex as much as you did. But I haven't wanted it at all.. The only porn I look at are the 3 videos that I have of us. Now I'm wishing we took more. You were and are my best lover. You knew my body, instinctively. There wasn't anything you did to me that I didn't enjoy. It won't be the same without you. I think of you when I masturbate now.. I want to feel you. 

God I miss you so much!