That feeling

Did you know how I wanted to break down and cry when I saw you for the first time in a month? When you came to my house and I hugged you.. Did you feel  me whimper when you hugged me? I hated being without you. Damn you I fucking hate being without you!!! There was nothing more in this world I wanted. You. I wanted you. But the man I know you were capable of being. Not this fucking coward you turned out to be... 

My back hurts and guess what I think of? I think of you rubbing my hammys while I lay across your lap! Fuck you! Fuck you for making me miss you like I do. My world is falling apart. I'm in such pain